I’ve gotten to know myself pretty well over the past few years. Why I think the way I think. React the way I react.
Why I wrestle with making decisions.
Why I want you to feel good about me before I feel good about myself.
Why I usually start from the assumption that my gut instinct is wrong.
Why I back down from my opinion if I sense you disagree.
Lots of things I’ve disclosed and processed here on the blog. Self awareness is more than just cathartic. It’s important.
You’ve got your own list, too. Some of you are just more aware of its content. Your own sin. Your own brokenness. The effects of a dysfunctional and fallen world pressing in around you. It’s there.
But let me give you a key piece of advice:
Self awareness is only half the battle, but sometimes we want to stop and hide there. It’s one thing to understand the lies that feed your brokenness, it’s another thing altogether to step courageously into the truth.
It’s great to be able to acknowledge your people pleasing tendencies when someone challenges your character. It’s even better to live into the truth of who God made you to be in the mist of all those questions.
It’s great to understand why you avoid intimacy when things get tough. It’s even better to learn to push into relationship when everything in you says to run.
It’s great to comprehend why you stay quiet about your perspectives when you’re in a large group of people. It’s even better to boldly express what you really think and let others be responsible for how they choose to respond.
Self awareness is so important. Dig up your ugly roots. Study them. Grab a microscope. Diagnose.
But don’t stop with just understanding your brokenness. Start living into the truth. That’s the most important part. The part that really matters.
The part that requires the most courage.